Dear Prudence, open up your eyes.

i need jes now more than ever before.

posted by Hannah @ 6:44 PM 0 Comments

The assistant manager, Lisa, is traveling to New York City on January 19th, just for the weekend, and she wants MEEEE, Brittany, and Tyler to accompany her! I love Lisa.. she's tons of fun, and she's really cool. I want to go to New York City sooo badly. I know my parents will rip the oppertuinty out from under me, like they do with anything like this, but I'm going to beg and plead and do whatever else it might take. I am willing to pay for it and everything.. I won't even need that much money, cause I know we're not gonna do anything educational, hahaha. I will just need to give her gas money, then some money for whatever hotel we stay in, and money for food. I don't NEED to go shopping or anyhting, even though I'd love to.. I can't afford it, haha.

Well, I hope my parents decide to let the leash go on this one.. heh, and let me actually explore some place other than Kentucky. gaahhhh I want to go so bad.

posted by Hannah @ 2:37 PM 0 Comments

Today was long. Very long.

Brian called and woke me up around 12 ish... Then he came and got me and we went back to his apartment and watched Over the Hedge. hahaha. The ride there wasnt nearly as awkward as I was afraid it was going to be. He is surprisingly able to talk about anything. Sometimes that's good, and other times, however, this is bad. Anyway, though. We got there and watched Over the Hedge, which was tremendous. haha. What a fantastic movie. We then played cards and he killed me in War. hahaha Yeah, i dont know how to play anything else. I basically forced him into Go Fish. yeah, i won that game. haha. Then he dropped me off at work.. we had a totally awkward in-the-car hug. Oh man it was weird. Most Awkward Hug Ever Award = to me and him. he has not texted me once since we parted ways. I get the feeling that he doesnt plan on it either, hahaha. Also, he is the biggest text whore I know.. soo yeaaah. Ohhhh well. I suck and always ruin stuff like this. bleh.

So yeah he dropped me off at work. blahblahblah work is the same everyday. Except.. today William and Jonathan came in to visit me. =] psht, Sam wouldnt let them come up into the office... Sam is being such a toolbox. Im seriously debating quitting because hes become such a jerk. If he hates his job so much, maybe he should think about not being a loser and going to finish college, or at least find a better job than one that has to do with Chakeres. Its not my fault his life sucks, he really needs to quit taking it out on me.

After work, Jonathan, William and I went out. First to Kroger, then we planned on going to Steak-N-Shake till we realized that O'Charleys is open till 1am! So we went there instead. Later during the dinner, Rachel showed up. It was lovely! After food, we went back to William's. We started watching Lemony Snickets or whatever. I forgot how much I adore Rachel. She is precious and her laugh always makes me laugh! Anyway though, William's dad kicked us out around 2am, so here I am now.

Jes has been gone for 18 days now. blah. She doesnt even start classes till January 22 or so, the jerk. And shes also thinking about taking a semester off so she can start working a lot and earn some money for college. Maybe she should just take a semester off, and she can live in my closet. I'll slip her bread crumbs under the door..and no one would even know she was in there!

So apparently I've gotten funnier since last year. I nearly made William and Jonathan die from lack of oxygen due to heavy laughter tonight. It must be all of the time I've spent alone thinking up ridiculous scenarios because I'm totally friendless. It's worked my imagination like none other! Yep. Well, I have friends, but it's nothing like what I had with the amazing Class of 2006! All those nutcases understood my sense of humor.. Everyone now thinks I'm just ridiculous and totally not funny and yeah, I don't even know. I don't get them. And of course, the good friends that I've made this year are graduating. haha. bleh.
I don't want everyone to go back after Christmas break. I don't want to go back to school. In fact, I'd rather have my arms ripped off by an angry bear than return to school. It's a place of torture for me. Everyday I go through the same thing.. 7 hours of not talking, complete confusion, depression, and loneliness. It's awful. I truly hate school.

I bought green eyeshadow today! I love green eyeshadow! I also love filling voids in my heart with stupid useless items! The day Jes left, we all went to the mall afterwards. I emptied my bank account, and just spent, spent, spent. lol, im really bad about that... yeaaah. I think I'm done here, though.. Goodbyyyyyyyyyye

posted by Hannah @ 2:35 AM 0 Comments

Jes met Christopher Lloyd! Well, kinda. haha. She called me and was freaking out and i was like, "Gaahh calm down! What?!" and she was like "I WAS JUST EATING DINNER AT THE SAME TABLE AS CHRISTOPHER LLOYD!" hahaha. ohhh, hollywood. What a place to be.


im in a RENT mood.
Just take me oooooouuuuuut toniiiight!

oh man so uhhmm Audrey is playing Adelaide in Guys and Dolls.

...........................

at least Betsy didnt get it??
the end.

posted by Hannah @ 5:42 PM 1 Comments

"...And I don't believe that anybody feels the way I do about you now
And all the roads we have to walk are winding
And all the lights that lead us there are blinding
There are many things that I would like to say to you but I dont know how.

Because, maybe...
you're gonna be the one that saves me
and afterall
you're my wonderwall."

It's only been 10 days since Jes has left..but these past 10 days have felt like eternity. I feel so lost. I also feel really cheesy saying all this stuff, but it's the truth. She kept me sane. She smacked sense into me when I was hysterical... she was always there to laugh with me, cry with me, scream with me. everything. I know there are some people that care about me here, and I care about some people here too, but it's nothing like it was with Jes. I thought I had this type of friendship with Whitney, haha, but I was so crazily controlled by her that she just forced me to believe that was what we had. I was basically her puppet. anywhoooo...
Id give anything just to visit jes right now. i knew i was dependent on others, but jeez. I am a complete wreck without her.

and if my parents dont lay off, i swear im going to knock them out. lol. If im ever upset about her around them they are like "oh get over it, you guys werent even that close, you just started hanging out a lot her last week here!" and im like ".......WHERE HAVE YOU BEEN FOR THE PAST YEAR?" igyd0f97 they are so annoying and need to learn to shut their faces before i do it myself.

"Hey there, Delilah,
Don't you worry about the distance
I'm right there if you get lonely,
give this song another listen,
close your eyes.
Listen to my voice,
it's my disguise.
I'm by your side.."

posted by Hannah @ 8:13 PM 1 Comments

I got a new phone! :] Motorola Razr v3m v cast. yhey. haha.

I got 2 ring tones so far.. the first one on accident - Coheed & Cambria - Ten Speed. the 2nd? So on purpose! Rent - Out Tonight! WOOO! :] anywho. im through with this post already. derek hates me and never comments me anymore. <3

posted by Hannah @ 11:06 PM 0 Comments

I hate that I am not man enough to spill my true feelings to anyone about anything.



anywho. I'm going to SBCC whether my parents like it or not. They dont want me to, but I honestly dont care. at all. not even a bit. They say its too far away, and well, lets face it.. thats exactly why Im going there. The only person that has ever truly cared about me is there, and its 3,000 miles away from here.
Sounds amazing to me.

posted by Hannah @ 11:23 PM 4 Comments

Hot Guy of the Week: Travis the waiter.

Travis is a waiter at Steak-N-Shake. Becky took this picture for me, then proceeded to tell him about how sexy I thought he was. He then told her to tell me his work schedule... I haven't visited him yet, but he is a hottie.






I miss Jes already. It's 4:46AM on December 6, 2006. Her plane leaves in a little less than 4 hours. We cried and cried and cried last night and spent time reminiscing and laughing over all of the dumb things we've done together. Ah, bf4l.

posted by Hannah @ 4:44 AM 0 Comments

It's just begun and it's already coming to an end..

"We are not lesbians! We are gaylords!"









I made her a cd...

1.) Spoon - The Way We Get By
2.) The All-American Rejects - Move Along
3.) Blink 182 - Going Away to College
4.) Coldplay - Green Eyes
5.) The Format - Tune Out
6.) Ying Yang Twins - Shake
7.) Frou Frou - Let Go
8.) Phantom Planet - California
9.) Norah Jones - Sunrise
10.) The Beatles - Let It Be
11.) The Postal Service - We Will Become Silhouettes
12.) Jack's Mannequin - Dark Blue
13.) Lillix - It's About Time
14.) Gary Jules - Mad World
15.) Gregory and the Hawk - Boats and Birds
16.) Rogue Wave - Eyes
17.) Gavin DeGraw - Follow Through
18.) Alexi Murdoch - Orange Sky
19.) Plain White T's - Hey There Delilah
20.) Sufjan Stevens - That Dress Looks Nice On You
21.) Yeah Yeah Yeah's - Maps

all of these songs remind me of her like crazy. sigh. 2 best friends disappear in 1 year... i just cant pick the right ones, can i?!

posted by Hannah @ 11:51 PM 0 Comments