Bonjour, blogspot. Long time no chitty-chat!
I'm not entirely positive what possessed me to dig up my past tonight. I say "possessed," because as I read through my old entries.. I realized how miserable of a kid I really was. I thought at the time that I was unhappy and unarguably alone. I understand now that I was simply immature and painfully obnoxious. But what can I say? I was struggling with the angstiest of teenage angst. My closest, and almost only, friend had moved 2,000 miles across the country. I felt totally abandoned, and I can't believe I let that stop me from pursuing so many opportunities. I am not regretful of my past, but I would like to know how things would've been had I taken another route. Though I seem to think everything could've been different if I'd had a different attitude, I am sad to say I know deep down it wasn't entirely up to me. I think a lot of things would still be the same. I'd lose and gain the same friends. I'd probably still be in the same position I am now... well, except for the whole, "Man, I sounded like a moron," thing when I went back and read these posts.
Goodness.. I really was just a kid. I could've sworn I had the entire world figured out. I even thought I knew what love was and that I'd experienced it. Haha, that's a laugh. Now I'm not even sure love exists. Is it just an illusion people convince themselves is real to drown out everything else? Just to say, "Well, at least I have you by my side.. and that's all I need."
Really? C'mon. It's a romantic idea, but is it realistic? I couldn't say. Though I've grown up a lot, I'm still a bit of a pessimist. I'd like to believe it exists, but it's so hard when you've been let down.
Let's get on to the things that matter.
College!:
Yessir. I'm offically a college kid. I'm going to be a whopping sophomore at Western KY University this year. I'm fairly sure I'm going to dive into Religious Studies for a major. And yes, there are specific people to thank for that, and I'm sure they know who they are. I'm undeclared as of now, but it's one of my top choices. If not religious studies, I know I will most definitely minor in it. Other major options are history and anthropology. Who ever imagined Hannah as a history major? haha. When I first started this blog, I would've rather beaten my grandmother with a dead rat than claim a history major. Crazy.
This semester I am getting a house with my friend, Jack. He's an amazing person.. so genuine and sweet. We're looking at a 4 bedroom house with a full kitchen and full living room! It's super cheap, too! $450/month. I haven't gotten to look at it yet, but I'm gonna jump to conclusions and say it's a total wreck. The landlord says it's a little dirty, but he's replacing the carpets and painting the walls for us. So it looks like we're just gonna have to suck it up and get ready to put some elbow grease into this thing. Whatevs. I'm sure Jack and I can turn it into a bangin' bachelor pad in no time. I have faith in us! =)
Well, Bloggy McBloggerson. Reuniting with you tonight was a beautiful thing. It's kind of silly of me to write in here, though, isn't it? A public blog exists so that your friends can keep up with you, right? Or something? Funny.. I don't think any of mine are on blogspot anymore.
Oh well. If anyone actually does end up reading this, for some reason.. feel free to post a comment and let me know you exist and that you're a total creeper.
(Imagine me holding a walkie talkie when I say this.. it'll really add to the effect and prove I'm cool. No, seriously. Just do it.)
Over and out.
-Hannah
I have gotten way too bored with this thing.
Therefore... I am abandoning it.
Maybe some people should get AIM.
*glare*
All I Need by Mat KearneyHere it comes
It's all blown into night
I woke up this morning
To a blood-red sky
Burning on the bridge
Turning off the lights
We're on the run
I can see it in your eyes
If nothing is safe
Then I don't understand
You call me a boy
But I'm trying to be the man
One more day
And It's all slipping in the sand
You touch my lips
And grab the back of my hand
The back of my hand
Guess we both know
We're in over our heads
We got nowhere to go
And no home that's left
The water is rising
On a river turning red
It all might be okay
Or we might be dead
If everything we've got
Is slipping away
I meant what I said
When I said, "till my dying day"
I'm holding on to you
Holding on to me
Maybe it's all going black
But you're all I see
You're all I see
Walls are shaking
Hear them sound the alarm
Last shift's breaking
So don't let go of my arm
Grab your bags
And a picture of where we met
All that we'll leave behind
Is all that's left
If everything we got
Is blowing away
We gotta rock in a rock
Till our dying day
I'm holding on to you
Holding on to me
Maybe it's all we got
But it's all I need
You're all I need
And if all we've got
Is what no one can break
I know I love you
If that's all we can take
The tears are coming down
They're mixing with the rain
I know I love you
If that's all we can take
A fool is running for miles
On the concrete ground
We're eight feet deep
In a rain still coming down
The TV's playing it all
Out of town
I'm grabbing at the fray
For something that won't drown
I saw Zodiac last night.
2 hours and 40 minutes of "I thought Jake Gyllenhaal was the star of this movie?"
I'm gonna be honest, Mark Ruffalo way upstaged him. Or at least, that's how I feel.
Mark Ruffalo in 70's gear? Heck yes, please. Tight stripey pants. haha. cute.
uhh. Then I went to Amy's house and we had a girl's night. weeeoooo! it was me, mckenzie, kristen, heather, shana, and amy. It was fun :]
I get my license in 24 days! WOOHOO!!
Hey Derek, I'm gonna come visit you at UK. Oh yes, really.
hmmm
SNL with Jake Gyllenhaal and The Shins. Normally I'd be like, "SNL? Yeah... ok...." but under these circumstances, I really must watch.
Peace out thugs!
I haven't had a real update in a while.
So I went to the John Mayer concert last night. It was incredible! Brittany and I kinda had sucky seats, but I'm thankful that I got to go. He is so talented. He sounds even better live than he does on cd or anything. He voice is really beautiful.. and he uses it a lot more on stage than he does in his singles and stuff. He's also really funny.. lol he likes to joke around with the audience. Basically, I'm in love. He is amazing. :] Some people we knew talked to some lady out in the lobby before the show and she was asking them, like, "So what's your favorite song?" and "If you could sit anywhere, where would you want to sit?" So they come in, and they're sitting behind us.. note that we're in the balcony, haha. We're pretty far back. Anywho, this lady comes in and gets them and is like "You're going to the first row!" .............
I've never been so jealous in my life. Haha. It was ridiculous.. I was so envious! Then he came out and I see them jump up and take pictures and all this stuff and ohhhhh grrrr, yeah, I definitely cried. I can't help it.. I looove Johnny MayMay and I'm emotional. haha. Oh well, it was still really awesome. His best song? Vultures... definitely. It's the catchiest song I've ever heard. Go listen to it now!
I forgot to mention that John Mayer is, without a doubt, the absolute sexiest man in the entire universe.
what else... hmmm. A month and like, 9 days?? or something, until I go to CA :] I'm pretty excited. Jes is really excited too! She says she's beginning to hate Santa Barbara cause her roommates suck and no one there has a sense of humor, haha. So I'm pumped to go cheer her up for 10 days. it will be a jolly time. I guess that's really all I have to say though...
Listen to more John Mayer. I demand it.
Oh here! I found this thing for Vultures...
John Mayer and bad seats! WOOHOO!
